35 years old and I still don’t know what I am doing with my life. And as I am typing this, I am listening to an audio that I’m supposed to be listening to learn about Knowledge for a training class that I started almost 2 weeks ago. It’s a call center which is work from home. My first work from home job that I thought I wanted to do. Do I? Maybe if I actually wanted to work for this company or maybe if it was easier. I will admit, if I don’t like what I’m doing, I will half ass it. But maybe I just half ass everything I do. Maybe that’s why I am where I am today. There is for sure a lot of information that we, meaning our training class is needing to know to do our jobs . By the way, started with 55 people, we are now down to 40. Its only the end of our second week.
And so as I am supposed to be listening to this and watching this video for work, I am thinking of what I can do to make extra money or just not have a regular job, so I google, “how to make extra money” and come up with lots of ideas on the Google search. I thought about doing Youtube videos but I’m not one to be in front of the camera. But maybe in the near future if this catches on, there will be a Youtube video. I don’t like being the center of attention. And those of you who know me know that. Which I don’t think many of you do know me. I just let you know what I want you to know about me. There’s a lot that I don’t say because, well, its none of your business or I just don’t want to talk. I’ve done things I’m not really proud of and there are people in my life that I have known for years that they still don’t know a lot about me.
Have you ever been around someone who just likes to talk about themselves and doesn’t care about what the other person has to say? I have, a lot. Not sure why people just think about themselves and not anyone else. I love hearing what other people have to say and so I listen. I’ve always been told I am a good listener. That’s true. Its also true that I like to be heard every once in awhile. Although I may not speak up at times or speak my mind because my whole life I have been shy. I have come out of my “shell” as they say. And I wouldn’t take it as being shy now. I would say its just not wanting to say anything a lot of the time. Maybe because I just don’t want to talk or maybe because I don’t have anything to say. Either way, I feel I have grown a lot since I was a kid. We’ll get into more of that later on if you’re still reading.
So I may not be the smartest person or the best ‘anything’ actually but I am the one and only person who knows me and I know that I am capable of doing this and making something of it. I am someone to me and am a human being and have feelings and all that other good stuff just like every single person in the world does.
I don’t really think about the negative. It just weighs you down when you think about the negative things in life. I try and stay positive. And hope for the best. Now I’m just rambling. But this is what I started this blog for. To ramble, to be heard, by all of you when you just sat there and talked about yourselves and I listened. Its my turn to talk now…